Sunday, December 9, 2012

The Honeymoon Phase Is...

Today (12/9/2012), I am 18 weeks and 5 days pregnant. My various baby phone apps all confirm that I am 46.8% through my pregnancy. In addition to the apps, the countless websites and books exclaim I am in the honeymoon phase because I am in my second trimester. Friends and family remarked that my pregnancy has been going by so quickly.

✋Warning, stop reading now if you don't want to read the complaints of a whining and bitchin pregnant woman. 😡

I can't say this is the honeymoon phase. If it were, K and I would be swinging from the chandeliers. I feel awkward, not sexy with a high libido. I have no idea how or when couples who are expecting figure out how to be physically intimate. I can barely stay up pass 8:15 p.m. On top of that, all of the body pillows to prop me up, now physically separate us in bed. Oh how I miss my wife...

The symptoms from my first to second trimester are different, not better or worse. I am relieved that I am pass the stage with the higher percentage of miscarriage. I am also enjoying those gas bubbles that are not gas bubbles, but our baby letting us know he is "kicking clouds."

However, the never ending runny nose, post nasal drip, and sinus headaches are kicking my ass. I feel very fortunate that I work from home most days of the week. The horrible gas that results in incessant burbing and crepatating keeps me barricaded up in my home. In addition, I haven't had a normal bowel movement in months. I have to eat prunes, drink OJ with Metamucil, drink tons of water and pop 3 Colace tablets just to have a painful fight in the bathroom that results in pebble poops. When that fails to work, K is kind enough to bend me over and give me an enema to help ease the pain and partially unclog my intestines.

I can go on about my lower back and round ligament pain due to the growth of my uterus, but I think at this point, enough has been shared.

I can handle all of the symptoms I just described because they are ALL worth it.

I think the hardest symptom thus far is the heart ache from missing Baby Z. I know he is there and talk with him everyday. However, in my flawed logic, the only time I get to Really know he is there is during my monthly doctors' appointment. My primary Ob/Gyn let's me hear his heartbeat for 10 seconds and that makes my heart smile. However, the best appointments (I only had one thus far) are with my high-risk Ob/Gyn because he lets us see our baby. Seeing our little one makes my heart soar and helps to steady my patience because I know I will get to see this gift everyday starting in May.